This Little Girl
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
This Little Girl has been through so many storms in her life, fighting against all of the things that tried to destroy her and her mind, body, and soul. She has had to fight to stay alive. With no human strength of her own, she had faced death so many times, it is hard to keep count of. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and months turned into years. And as the years passed, the events just kept on coming. From childhood all the way though to adulthood, this little girl never really felt the love that she needed too. This little girl never really had anyone to depend on, to be there for her throughout her life. The hurt, the pain, the disappointment, the abuse both mentally and in every other way was just an everyday part of this little girl's life. The twists and turns of her life, kept this little girl from all the good things that life had to offer. Although she gave out many, many, many, times, she never ever gave up. The trouble in her life left lasting scars; she took a lemon and made lemonade.
The lesson in all of this is that no matter how hard things get, if you give up in the bad times, you will not be here for the good times. And I have learned that trouble does not always last. Holding on to any hope is what she had to do to make it until now. Through no power of a human and thanks be to the Lord, this little girl is a senior and is now fifty-five years old. That is a miracle all by itself. Only through the Lord's grace and mercy could anyone make it through so much.
Often I wonder how it would have been if I had a normal family: if I would have had a chance to work on my dreams, if I could have had a good relationship with my two sisters. Then if so, what would we have done together as sisters! Having a father in the home, I often wonder what that would be like. Having a real friend throughout life to go to in the time of need. Having a loving mother and grandmother, how would that feel, I often wonder! Having a husband that loves you no matter what, I often wonder how that would feel. In a word, blessed in all this mess is what I am. And the years keep on coming, and things are better than before. And hope is still alive and well. Now is the time for her to reap all that she has sown. And it is well with her soul. And she is looking to the hills 'cause that is where her help comes from. Not in people, not in things and stuff and money, but in Jesus. The path to happiness, hope, love, peace, and direction can be found in a relationship with Jesus. And there is so much more. Looking forward to the next book filled with a good report of the senior years.